Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in twinkie12005's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
2:44 am	It Has Been a LONG Time Since I've Updated Well guys it has been a while since I've been on here, so here I go. I still work at Arby's, I got promoted to crew trainer, yeah. I've been going through a lot since school ended. First of all, my grandma has dementia, which is like Alzheimer's Disease, but worse, and she's getting a lot worse. She's gotten to the point where she's getting into the abusive state of dementia and she's getting so bad that she wants to just give up and die. My family doesn't have it easy either, we all have been chasing after her early in the mornings because she wants to leave and never come back, horrible right. My uncle has gotten to the point where he doesn't wanna handle it anymore and he's wanted to kill himself. But that isn't the end of my family problems. We found out today that my eight year old niece might have cancer. She's the one that I raised and that I'm very close to, if she does have cancer I don't know what I'd do. I can't bare to lose her. My one year old niece has 4 kidney stems, which you're only supposed to have 2 (one on each kidney). They still don't want to do surgery on her yet. As far as I go, I've been sick lately. I've been hyperventalating a lot and I've been having chest and shoulder pains and the doctors said that if it isn't better in two weeks then I have to go get it checked out and I might have to have surgery. Part of the cause is that I've been worrying about things too much. But anyway, hope everyone is doing well. Have fun guys. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
2:22 pm	ok, so here I go. My life really sucks. I am battling with my sister and her husband over my two nieces. I don't know what to do anymore. My sister won't listen to anybody but her husband and its hurting my two nieces. My nieces are my life, I don't know what I'd do if I lost them. It sucks right now. My 8 year old niece is taking it the worst though. It is not only hurting her but it is hurting me too. You see me and my niece have this bond that a mother and daughter have, only she's my niece. It is weird I know. A few of you know the situation there. My niece tells me everything, even if it means telling on her mom and step-dad. I can't stand seeing her hurt, it hurts me. To see her hurt is like being hurt myself. I barely know who she is anymore. Her mom and step=dad have changed her so much, she is so scared of everything, she is very unhappy, and she is very angry. Anything she does, she gets in trouble for, even if it is just dropping a pencil on the ground and forgetting to pick it up. I just don't know what to do anymore. You all are probably thinking why I posted this. Well, I have been struggling with this for a long time, and I can't keep it to myself anymore. I have to tell somebody. Well anyway, sorry for the depressing post, but again I just needed to get that out. Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
1:29 pm	yeah just bored Hey all. So I'm sitting here in Comp.2 and I'm bored out of my mind. I'm really starting to feel as if I am losing most of my friends for some reason. It is like I am a bad person. I try not to be, actually I don't think I am. I just feel that just a few of my friends want to hang out with me anymore and I've lost contact with some of my friends. Anyway I better go. Have fun all. (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 28th, 2006
11:03 pm	MY life sucks Hey people. So today I got up and was in a really depressed mood. I've been thinking about a lot of things lately that I know I shouldn't have, because they made me even more depressed. I thought of my real dad, for all of you who know me, you know the situation there. I thought about my life in general, how I almost lost my life, because of my wreck. I thought about how my life means to some people and how some people don't think of me at all. I keep asking myself those "what if" questions. For example, what if I was as pretty or skinny as here. What would happen if my attitude was just like hers? What if my dad was still here? I know it seems like I have a great life, but I just keep all my problems to myself, and I can't do it anymore. It's getting too hard for me. Current Mood: depressed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 27th, 2006
8:44 am	Mornings, aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh I hate mornings. I would've slept in today, but my mom had to go to Evansville early this morning so I had to watch my 9 month old niece. Don't get me wrong I love watching her, its just I wanted to sleep in today. Anyway, mornings are horrible, especially when its still dark outside, lol ok. I'm just rambling, so I better get going. Current Mood: weird (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 19th, 2006
11:38 am	My day Yeah so I was up really late last night. I almost fell asleep in one of my classes. Math at 8 am is not a great idea. Whoever thought of that is crazy. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 11th, 2005
4:39 pm	Last week of school. Yaaaaahhhh!!!!!! Well until next semester of course. Lol. Hahahahaha. Well I better get back do doing nothing. It is the best part of my life. LOL. Whatever. Don't forget the twinkie. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 9th, 2005
10:32 am	cold Man it is really cold outside. I wish VU was cancelled today. (Comment on this)